Well since I giving Disney space and dealing with my family affair, boys have been flocking to me. Okay so its only 3 boys but still thats alot!!
First it started with Nashville. He was the man I was flirting with over the summer. I ran into him 3 times and thought it was fate. I didn't know anyone in Nashville, and then I run into this gorgeous man by chance. Since I am a huge believer of fate, I fell for him, hard. We talked all summer and then at the end we went on a date. Then we still talked a bit. I saw him again after my grandma's funeral. He met my grandparents and parents. I am surprised he called me today.
The second boy that reached out to me was a kid from high school. He messaged me out of blue. And he wanted hang out with me. I was like sure, why not? Then he asked me what I would like to do go out or have a few drinks, cuddle and watch a movie. Also there was a couch I could crash on. After some small talk, he revealed that he has has a crush on me for the longest time. and like how did I feel about that. And well.. I don't like being put on the spot. So I was like well we will see what happens. ;) he was like gunna play that card? Well if I give a definite answer and we hang out.....well then its gunna be expectations and well i don't like seeing expectations I can't meet. He asked me again what I wanted to do. I love to cuddle so... I opted to stay in and watch a movie. I don't how I feel about the situation. He never really talked to me when we ere in grades school together. So I don't understand why he didn't talk to me ever. And why now? Just seems kind of odd.
The third man that reached out to me, was a guy I started to talking from okcupid. Although it was small talk, there were some intense flirting. :) I don't have as much to write about this one cause I don't have any history with him yet.
Not sure what I am going to do. I really like Disney but I need to give him his space. He is having an awesome time and going through that transition phase from classes to starting co-op. Soon hopefully he talks to me. I feel that I reached out to him enough for him to realize that I like him and that I don't want to move on but I want to give him his space. Also I want him to reach out to me because I can't talk to him. When I like a boy my game goes way down. I get nervous and clingy and don't know what to say also I talk too much sometimes., If he watches the movies I burned for him. (Best gift i ever gave a boy.) I'll have something to talk about. I guess, if we both agree there wont be a future for the two of us, then I will pursue these other boys. But I don't want to be left waiting like I am in a doctor's office with no end in site.
I guess I will just play it by ear and hope for the best. I will keep my head focused on my senior project and getting better grades.
The purpose of this blog is to document the process of the development stages of the start-up ArtsSource. The blog originally had the purpose to document stories of my life and only touched upon ArtsSource but since ArtsSource has become my life it is important for the blog to reflect that. Posts can get an inside view of what ArtsSouce is doing. Posts will be have a variety of purposes such as documenting goals and recording the process to achieve the goals.
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Who is Clara?
So there is a HUGE mystery in my family. Who is Clara Hollander or Clara Tarieff?
Today, my grandparents and I took a road trip to meet my grandpa's mother's brother, great Uncle George. He was quite the adorable old man. He was also very emotional which made him a bit cuter. We didn't get much information about who my grandfather's mother is. He spent a big bunch of creating his family tree. And yet he could find very little about Clara, his sister. Apparently his family had kept it quiet on Clara's whereabouts as well. The only information both our families know is that she was put into a metal institution, she was married to my grandfather's father, and that both families covered up her existance.
It took us two hours to get there. And we were greeted as though we were long lost brother. George and his wife Dotty were so cute. It was a good thing that we have this opportunity to see him because he health didn't match his spirit. His poor hear has been giving him some difficult but it hasn't stopped him from completing his family tree. George showed us all the work that he has done over the years and it is quite extensive. He had copies of my grandpa's parents marriage certificate and old family photos. My grandma and I could see the family resemblance between Great-Uncle George and my grandpa. Also we could see the family resemblance between my dad and my grandpa's grandpa (so my great-great-grandpa).
It was quite interesting to hear the history of the two families and how Clara must have stirred up quite the family controversy because everyone who knew about her and her whereabouts kept it a secret to their graves. Either there must have been bad blood between families, or she might have ran away. It is not clear what could have happened. Now I am really curious to find out what had happened. The most likely story is that she was mental unstable and no one wanted that to get out.
The more I learn about this mystery the more I learn about extensive my family history is. There is quite a bit of drama in my family that still remains and has just been passed on to other generations just not the way they planned. Kinda how now there are 3 generations of hollanders plus 1 immediate family member are on a mission to find out who Clara is.
My head is still spinning in circles over this matter. I will finish this post in a few. I need to take a shower and just think for a few.
Today, my grandparents and I took a road trip to meet my grandpa's mother's brother, great Uncle George. He was quite the adorable old man. He was also very emotional which made him a bit cuter. We didn't get much information about who my grandfather's mother is. He spent a big bunch of creating his family tree. And yet he could find very little about Clara, his sister. Apparently his family had kept it quiet on Clara's whereabouts as well. The only information both our families know is that she was put into a metal institution, she was married to my grandfather's father, and that both families covered up her existance.
It took us two hours to get there. And we were greeted as though we were long lost brother. George and his wife Dotty were so cute. It was a good thing that we have this opportunity to see him because he health didn't match his spirit. His poor hear has been giving him some difficult but it hasn't stopped him from completing his family tree. George showed us all the work that he has done over the years and it is quite extensive. He had copies of my grandpa's parents marriage certificate and old family photos. My grandma and I could see the family resemblance between Great-Uncle George and my grandpa. Also we could see the family resemblance between my dad and my grandpa's grandpa (so my great-great-grandpa).
It was quite interesting to hear the history of the two families and how Clara must have stirred up quite the family controversy because everyone who knew about her and her whereabouts kept it a secret to their graves. Either there must have been bad blood between families, or she might have ran away. It is not clear what could have happened. Now I am really curious to find out what had happened. The most likely story is that she was mental unstable and no one wanted that to get out.
The more I learn about this mystery the more I learn about extensive my family history is. There is quite a bit of drama in my family that still remains and has just been passed on to other generations just not the way they planned. Kinda how now there are 3 generations of hollanders plus 1 immediate family member are on a mission to find out who Clara is.
My head is still spinning in circles over this matter. I will finish this post in a few. I need to take a shower and just think for a few.
Friday, March 25, 2011
Nervous
Going on road trip tomorrow to meet my great-uncle with my grandparents. It is going to be quite an interesting experience. There are a lot emotions circling through my family right now. Not sure how to react. Being an only child can be quite lonesome.
Family Affair
Had a fabulous day, today. Woke up around 10am and was by the pool by 11am. Got really frigidity so I walked about three miles which took about an hour. The picture below is where the rock formation that I walked to.
It was amazing walk. People are so interesting! Saw a few people kayaks. Little kids are so cute on the beach especially when they are in kayaks! lol Also ran into a few feathered friends who were walking along the shore line.
The most fascinating thing I saw on my adventure to the rock formation was probably the sand castle. there were two little signs that said Please keep off.
After my nice long walk. Spent the rest of the day with my grandparents. And we had a blast. My grandma and I video chatted with my mom. She thought it was the coolest thing ever seeing my mom on the other side of the phone call. :) We hung up, my grandparents took a nap as I worked by the pool. Both my grandparents helped me make big decisions regarding my senior project. My grandma helped me with the purpose while my grandpa helped me with the budget.
After dinner, my grandpa and I went on a walk to watch the sunset. We saw quite a bit of wildlife while we walked!!
I think this was probably the best sunset I have ever seen. Probably because I got to share it with someone so special to my heart. My grandpa and I really bonded during this walk and as we found a bench to sit and witness this amazing daily occurrence. Pictures only kinda do it justice. and since I took a bunch. The best ones are below.
It was amazing walk. People are so interesting! Saw a few people kayaks. Little kids are so cute on the beach especially when they are in kayaks! lol Also ran into a few feathered friends who were walking along the shore line.
The most fascinating thing I saw on my adventure to the rock formation was probably the sand castle. there were two little signs that said Please keep off.
After my nice long walk. Spent the rest of the day with my grandparents. And we had a blast. My grandma and I video chatted with my mom. She thought it was the coolest thing ever seeing my mom on the other side of the phone call. :) We hung up, my grandparents took a nap as I worked by the pool. Both my grandparents helped me make big decisions regarding my senior project. My grandma helped me with the purpose while my grandpa helped me with the budget.
After dinner, my grandpa and I went on a walk to watch the sunset. We saw quite a bit of wildlife while we walked!!
I think this was probably the best sunset I have ever seen. Probably because I got to share it with someone so special to my heart. My grandpa and I really bonded during this walk and as we found a bench to sit and witness this amazing daily occurrence. Pictures only kinda do it justice. and since I took a bunch. The best ones are below.
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Sammy Formal!
I got invited to my first formal by a boy!! Usually I do inviting so it is a nice change to be invited to somewhere. Although there isn't any romantic feeling since my date is my almost brother, its still pretty cool. I love him and his fraternity brothers. So it will be a fun dance.
Senior Project Blues
For my senior project, I am creating an agency/social network for the arts.
This is a lot more work than I thought. Ugh. So i have laid out the submission process for talent, classes, projects and organizations. Also started studying how to create lines of code for the website. Next comes the creation of the logo and business plan. This going to be alot of work! Probably gunna spend the whole day by the pool/gulf just writing the business plan and the outline that I am going to give the website creators.
Ask me about what I am doing if you want more details. I dont want to post them because I dont want anyone to copy my idea. I have only told my family and 2 other people the exact details.
This is a lot more work than I thought. Ugh. So i have laid out the submission process for talent, classes, projects and organizations. Also started studying how to create lines of code for the website. Next comes the creation of the logo and business plan. This going to be alot of work! Probably gunna spend the whole day by the pool/gulf just writing the business plan and the outline that I am going to give the website creators.
Ask me about what I am doing if you want more details. I dont want to post them because I dont want anyone to copy my idea. I have only told my family and 2 other people the exact details.
Blogging therapy
So blogging has become my new therapeutic outlet lol. I can just spill out all of my feelings anonymously. Sorta lol
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