Feelings SUCK!!!!!!! I have alot of feelings for this boy....
....and well I am not sure he has the same feelings for me as I do for him. I am one that notices the little things. It took him 3 months to get my number after we had hooked-up on Halloween. And 2 weeks later we went our first date.
I really like him but he didn't say good-bye before he left for 6 months to work at the DisneyPark in Orlando,Fl. It was my fault that I lost my phone before he left. And I understand that he wanted to be with his fraternity brothers before he left and things weren't that serious between us so he wasn't obligated too. So I mean that's fine.
It was really awkward the last time we hung out. I tried kissing him and he was not about it. Yet he was leading me when he had to go to the br and get more beer. He told me that he didn't want to h/u (make-out) cause we couldn't be anything. Yeah he was leaving and i graduating. But I told him we should just live in the moment. We were both wasted but still.
What bothers me about the whole situation is I assumed that he really liked me. And like now its weird. I don't know whether or not to move on or not. Cause if he really likes me, I am willing to wait. My senior project is going to allow me to stay in Philly after I graduate so waiting is no big deal. But if not, then fine I'll move on. It will be difficult but I am willing to do it.
I have a tendency to be super clingy (boys have said that I can be) And this is an extremely exciting time for him. Shit he is going to work at Disney!! That is so exciting and he probably doesn't want to be tied down while he is in Orlando looking uber fine with tons of girls around him. Seriously if I was him, I would be having the time of my life.
I am on okcupid.com with the assumption that I should move on. But I don't really want to. I felt so comfortable around him. He liked me for me and my crazy shinnanaggins. I like him for him. He is a great adorably sexy human with such amazing motivation and ambition. I strive to be a better human just so i can impress him.
I wish he would just share his feelings with me. Maybe then I would feel better about the whole situation. Idk if i should text him or fb chat him or just wait for him to reach out to me. I dont want to be waiting forever or waiting for something that wont come.
All n All, I am super happy that he is pursuing his dreams. He should be having the time of his life and not worrying about little old me.I am just stuck with leftover unresolved feelings.
The purpose of this blog is to document the process of the development stages of the start-up ArtsSource. The blog originally had the purpose to document stories of my life and only touched upon ArtsSource but since ArtsSource has become my life it is important for the blog to reflect that. Posts can get an inside view of what ArtsSouce is doing. Posts will be have a variety of purposes such as documenting goals and recording the process to achieve the goals.
Thursday, March 24, 2011
NEW PHONE!!!
So I had left my phone in cab. And the man who had my phone wouldn't return it to me. As a result, I was left phone-less for a while.....
....It took 12 hours for UPS to deliever my cell phone from the distribution center in Naples, Fl to where I am located in Naples,Fl. Why it took 12 hours I will never know.
These are the first picture I took with my new phone. Its the view of the gulf of Mexico.
....It took 12 hours for UPS to deliever my cell phone from the distribution center in Naples, Fl to where I am located in Naples,Fl. Why it took 12 hours I will never know.
These are the first picture I took with my new phone. Its the view of the gulf of Mexico.
WOW
So I am going on a road trip with my grandparents to meet my great uncle. This is an exciting adventure especially since my grandpa has never met him!! We are just discovering a new addition to our family. More to come on what happens!!!
So Annie Leibovitz has teamed up with Disney to produce the Disney Dream ads. These are the latest photos of the campaign. I am literally obsessed with them. Can I work for Disney marketing like right now??
Queen Latifah as Ursala from the Little Mermaid.
Where memories take hold and never let go
Olivia Wilde and Alec Baldwin from the characters from Snow White.
Where magic speaks, even when your the fairest of them all
Penelope Cruz and Jeff Bridges as Beauty and the Beast
Where a moment of beauty lasts forever.
I am a bit Disney obsessed so these ads only make me want to work for them more. Even though they have the worst reputation for how they treat their employees. I have been having a bad couple of the days so these ads just inspire me.
Queen Latifah as Ursala from the Little Mermaid.
Where memories take hold and never let go
Olivia Wilde and Alec Baldwin from the characters from Snow White.
Where magic speaks, even when your the fairest of them all
Penelope Cruz and Jeff Bridges as Beauty and the Beast
Where a moment of beauty lasts forever.
I am a bit Disney obsessed so these ads only make me want to work for them more. Even though they have the worst reputation for how they treat their employees. I have been having a bad couple of the days so these ads just inspire me.
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Sunscreen Shock
So I have learned the hard way to put on sunscreen more carefully. I can't wear a bra cause I have sunburn sporadically in the most awkward spots. Like one half and in between my chest.
my grandpa thought his mother died at childbirth when in fact the woman rising him actually knew she was alive.My great grandmother had severe post pardum depression and was institutionalized. My grandpa was raised by one of the triples. Helen I believe. And she had actually visited him a few times in past 50 years before her death.
The reason this came was because his mother apparently had a brother. He has called my grandpa to find out about his sister because he was going a family tree. Well my grandfather only knows her maiden name because he was looking through his fathers belongings. He discovered at 8years old that he had a brother walking through the graveyard reading the family tombstones.
The reason he knows so little is because apparently it was hard for my grandfather's father. And they didn't want my grandfather to know. They thought it was better if he didn't know.
my grandpa thought his mother died at childbirth when in fact the woman rising him actually knew she was alive.My great grandmother had severe post pardum depression and was institutionalized. My grandpa was raised by one of the triples. Helen I believe. And she had actually visited him a few times in past 50 years before her death.
The reason this came was because his mother apparently had a brother. He has called my grandpa to find out about his sister because he was going a family tree. Well my grandfather only knows her maiden name because he was looking through his fathers belongings. He discovered at 8years old that he had a brother walking through the graveyard reading the family tombstones.
The reason he knows so little is because apparently it was hard for my grandfather's father. And they didn't want my grandfather to know. They thought it was better if he didn't know.
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Hello Dear Friend
Since I am about to graduate Drexel Univeristy, I have been reminiscing quite about. Particularly about what prior work experiences. One thing that hasn't changed is that my mind is constantly racing. And one can only do so many things at one.
One thing let to another and well I am back and this is an entry about I got to where I am sitting right now.
Currently, I am in Naples, Florida staying at my grandparents condo. It was an unexpected surprise having the opportunity to be down here. And actually quite a challenging travel experience.
I realized I lost my wallet about an hour before I had to leave for the airport. I was about to grab my wallet to leave to buy a parking spot for car on campus. And well my bright pink leopard wallet was no where to be found. I parked my car close to campus where there was free parking and campus security. The septa cashier gave me a free train ticket when I told him how much I was struggling.(I also lost my cell phone a few days prior.) I passed through airport security with an expired license and copy of my current one that made to send the cell phone insurance company.(You will hear about how I feel about them later.) ince there wasn't a store in the airport that would take my personal checks. (I found this out by walking across the airport and back. ) I slept awkwardly in front of cute stranger.
Southwest airlines is great because you can sit near the front and meet great people unexpectedly. I met this fabulous married couple. I sat next to the wife and we literally talked the whole duration of the plane ride. It was great. I wish I gave her my business card so we could have more great conversations. :/
My grandma was adorably waiting for me at the exit. I sensibly over packed and such a comfort to see my grandmas warm smiling face. She then told me as I am hanging by a thread with heavy luggage all over my upper body. She told me anxiously that we needed to hurry to see "The man with the Golden Flute." She was a little disappointed when I told her in addition to my two large carry-ons I had also another one waiting for me at baggage claim. Luckily it didn't take long to retrieve my bag and greet my grandpa driving the car.
The Philharmonic Center for the Arts in Naples, Florida is one of the most amazing theatres I have ever been to. There are art pieces dispersed everywhere through out the lobby and the patron area. Part of the lobby was an actual museum! It was a perfect symbiosis of the arts.
I need to go there again. It was unfortunate I was too tired to appreciate the opportunity my grandparents were giving me.
Finally got some sleep though in the end.
Today was spent in two ways. On the phone and around food (a typical Jewish way) I'm still can't believe what I encountered today and need to go get some sleep and try to get on a normal sleeping schedule.
One thing let to another and well I am back and this is an entry about I got to where I am sitting right now.
Currently, I am in Naples, Florida staying at my grandparents condo. It was an unexpected surprise having the opportunity to be down here. And actually quite a challenging travel experience.
I realized I lost my wallet about an hour before I had to leave for the airport. I was about to grab my wallet to leave to buy a parking spot for car on campus. And well my bright pink leopard wallet was no where to be found. I parked my car close to campus where there was free parking and campus security. The septa cashier gave me a free train ticket when I told him how much I was struggling.(I also lost my cell phone a few days prior.) I passed through airport security with an expired license and copy of my current one that made to send the cell phone insurance company.(You will hear about how I feel about them later.) ince there wasn't a store in the airport that would take my personal checks. (I found this out by walking across the airport and back. ) I slept awkwardly in front of cute stranger.
Southwest airlines is great because you can sit near the front and meet great people unexpectedly. I met this fabulous married couple. I sat next to the wife and we literally talked the whole duration of the plane ride. It was great. I wish I gave her my business card so we could have more great conversations. :/
My grandma was adorably waiting for me at the exit. I sensibly over packed and such a comfort to see my grandmas warm smiling face. She then told me as I am hanging by a thread with heavy luggage all over my upper body. She told me anxiously that we needed to hurry to see "The man with the Golden Flute." She was a little disappointed when I told her in addition to my two large carry-ons I had also another one waiting for me at baggage claim. Luckily it didn't take long to retrieve my bag and greet my grandpa driving the car.
The Philharmonic Center for the Arts in Naples, Florida is one of the most amazing theatres I have ever been to. There are art pieces dispersed everywhere through out the lobby and the patron area. Part of the lobby was an actual museum! It was a perfect symbiosis of the arts.
I need to go there again. It was unfortunate I was too tired to appreciate the opportunity my grandparents were giving me.
Finally got some sleep though in the end.
Today was spent in two ways. On the phone and around food (a typical Jewish way) I'm still can't believe what I encountered today and need to go get some sleep and try to get on a normal sleeping schedule.
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